# Chapter 9: The Hands We Hold and the Secrets We Keep
Hello everyone, it's me again! How are you all doing? Today I will continue to walk with you and review Chapter 9 of "Marriage on Madison Avenue." This is the chapter where a fake engagement starts to feel dangerously real, where a quiet dinner becomes a performance for an unseen audience, and where one simple question—*why don’t you want to get married?*—cracks open a wound that has been quietly shaping Audrey’s heart for years. So settle in, because this chapter is equal parts sparkling banter, emotional confession, and one absolutely disastrous wedding dress.
We begin inside Clarke’s head, and what a complicated place that is. Clarke is thinking about York, the family company that he once swore he wanted nothing to do with. He remembers how he pushed the old guard to take the digital space seriously before anyone else did, how he turned their doubt into an empire of apps and optimized websites, and how he rose through the ranks—not because of his last name, he likes to believe, but because he earned it. Yet the one person who refuses to give him even a sliver of praise is his own father, Alton. Alton never openly undermines Clarke in front of Maria Folse, the vice president of operations who shares Clarke’s second-in-command title and clearly wants the CEO seat for herself. But in private? Alton never lets Clarke forget the boy who once rejected the family business, the frat guy who ignored his mother’s wish for law school and his father’s wish for a business degree. The irony, of course, is that Clarke’s computer science degree—the very thing his father hated—probably saved York. And somewhere along the way, what started as defiance became genuine love. The company became a part of Clarke, whether he liked it or not. Most of the time, he didn’t like it. But he would fight for it.
Still, tonight is not about York. Tonight is about Audrey. They are at a restaurant, playing their parts as the happily engaged couple. Clarke checks his email and finds nearly triple digits of unread messages. Maria has been busy taking advantage of his distraction, and he knows she wants Alton to see that she is still at the office while Clarke is off sipping wine with his “fiancée.” Clarke doesn’t know how much his father knows about the fake engagement, but it wouldn’t matter. Alton would penalize Clarke for choosing anything over the company—even his own wedding. So Clarke archives what he can, fires off a few quick replies, flags the rest for morning, and then glances at Audrey. Her tongue is tucked into the right side of her cheek, the way it always is when she’s focusing. He turns back to his phone and pulls up Instagram, curious to see how ridiculous he looks in the photo she’s editing.
He doesn’t expect to see himself first.
There, posted by @Scandal Boy NYC, is a photo of Clarke glaring down at his iPhone. Same suit. Same restaurant. Same martini he had just sipped. It had to have been taken within the last few minutes. Clarke’s blood pressure spikes. He doesn’t even need to see the handle to know who it is. He started following that account under a fake profile the moment the twerp began giving Audrey trouble. The caption makes him see red—a complete stranger daring to assess what Clarke is thinking, what he is feeling, and worse, implying that Audrey could ever lose him. Clarke fights for control. He wants to scan the room, find the coward who crossed the line, but instead he focuses on Audrey. She hasn’t seen the story yet. She is still editing her photo or writing her caption, thoughtful, unaware.
So Clarke becomes an actor. He sets his phone aside with deliberate boredom, takes a sip of his cocktail, and relaxes his posture. Then he leans forward slightly and says her name. “Audrey.” She answers with a distracted “Mmm,” still not looking up. He resists the urge to snap at her, because having her full attention on her phone is not exactly selling the madly-in-love narrative. Slowly, he reaches across the table and touches her hand. She jerks in surprise, and he wraps his fingers around hers, hoping no one notices how startled she was to have her fiancé casually hold her hand. When she looks up in bewilderment, he forces an easy smile and lowers his voice to tell her they are being watched.
“Seriously?” she says after he drops the bombshell. “Someone’s here? Watching us?”
“Apparently. No, don’t look!” he admonishes. “Honestly, you’re not very good at this whole clandestine romance thing.”
“Believe it or not, pretending to be in love with my best friend doesn’t come all that easily,” she snaps, clearly rattled. Clarke’s thumb stops stroking her knuckles. A little stab of hurt catches him off guard. Not because he expects her to be in love with him. He isn’t in love with her. But it doesn’t feel good to know that the one person he cares about more than anything thinks him such an unworthy romantic partner. Then again, can he blame her? Audrey knows him. She knows how cavalierly he treats relationships. She suspects his deepest shame—the thing he hadn’t even known about himself until she told him about the pact she’d made with Naomi and Claire to protect one another from heartbreakers. The moment she told him, he knew. He was one of those men. Not one of the good ones. He was a Brayden. He was exactly the kind of man the women had sworn to protect one another against. All this time, he’d wondered if Audrey realized. Now he is fairly certain. She knows.
Still, knowing who Clarke really is doesn’t mean she can’t pretend to be enamored with who he is pretending to be. Saving her reputation is the least he can do, but she needs to sell it better. Her spine is straight, her eyes wide, her face white. So he instructs her gently: put your phone away slowly, indifferently, like whatever’s happening on it doesn’t matter. She does. Then he asks for her other hand. She hesitates only briefly before setting her right hand lightly atop his. “Smile,” he says. “No, not a big grin, just a little private smile, like we’re having a nice conversation.”
“But we are *not* having a nice conversation. You’re being bossy,” she points out.
“You look nice today,” he says, stroking his thumbs over her knuckles. “Is that a new lipstick?”
Her eyes narrow. “What are you doing?”
“Showing interest in my fiancée and hoping the Peeping Tom in the restaurant with us notices. Your turn.”
She sighs slightly. “Fine. How was your day?”
“Do better,” he says in exasperation.
“How’d your presentation to the board go?”
“Solid wifely question,” he praises with a wink. “And good. Maria couldn’t find much to nitpick about, so that’s always positive.”
She watches him closely. “And your dad? What did he think?”
Clarke shrugs. “Hard to read. He didn’t seem displeased by my team’s suggestions, so that’s a start.”
“He’ll come around, you know. He’s just making you earn your stripes before he hands over the company reins.”
“Maybe.”
“You’re *good* at your job,” she says, squeezing his hands. “And more important to me, it’s obvious that you love it. Something, by the way, I never thought possible back when you wanted to be a safari tour guide as a kid.”
“I maintain that that was a solid career track.”
“Yes, but it’s mostly honeymooners,” she teases. “Whomever would you sleep with?”
His grin slips slightly. “Is that all you think I care about?”
She looks surprised at his tone. “No. Of course not. I mean, I don’t know. You said yourself today you’d never thought about your wedding. I guess I realized I’ve never been able to picture you getting married either.”
Clarke starts to withdraw his hands, but Audrey tightens her grip. “Hold on,” she protests. “I didn’t mean to say that you wouldn’t make a great husband. I mean that you’ve never shown interest in a long-term relationship. Outside of Elizabeth.” He hears the question in her voice, but he doesn’t answer it.
Instead, he asks, “Did you mean what you told the wedding planner? Is the spectacle your dream wedding?”
She hesitates, clearly tempted to press him about his ex, but instead she smiles and shrugs. “Yeah. I don’t know how you’re surprised. I mean, you saw my wedding scrapbooks when I was twelve.”
“Saw? You once made me spend an entire afternoon gluing pictures of wedding cakes into a spiral notebook.”
“An even exchange for me passing that note to Steff Miller at ballet class.”
“That took you five seconds. Those damn cake pictures took hours.”
“I seem to remember that the result of that note passing was you and Steff making out in Bryant Park. I got exactly *nothing* out of those wedding notebooks.”
“Not true. You just started your wedding planning really, *really* early. Now you have a head start.”
“Yeah, for a wedding that won’t be happening.”
“Well, I mean, no, not yours and mine. But your *real* wedding.”
Even as he says it, the thought feels strange. Objectively, he’d always known Audrey would likely get married someday, just as sure as he’d known that he likely would not. But now he realizes what Audrey’s inevitable marriage would mean. No more dinners like this one, just the two of them. No more being each other’s last-minute dates to events and fund-raisers. No more casual Friday nights binging on *The Fast and the Furious*.
“Wait, my real wedding?” she says, looking surprised. “I thought out of everyone you would understand.”
“Understand what?”
“I don’t want to get married.”
Clarke blinks. He’s known this woman his whole life, and she very rarely surprises him. But she shocks the hell out of him now. “Why the hell did I have to glue those wedding cake pictures, then? Since when have you not wanted to get married?”
Her smile is a little sad. “Since Brayden.”
His fingers clench hers. “Dree, you know better than anyone that he was actual human waste. I’m not glad he died, but I’m glad you’re not with him anymore. You can’t let him ruin your life.”
“I’m not!” she insists. “I’m perfectly happy single.”
“What happens when you meet someone?”
She hesitates. “Well, that hasn’t happened, has it? The closest has been Randy, and look how that turned out.”
He shakes his head. “You were never going to marry Randy, even if he hadn’t turned out to be a married weirdo. But, and I mean this as a compliment, you’re marriage material.”
“Says the man who doesn’t want to get married.”
“Says the man who knows you. And I know you’ve always wanted a husband and a family and a dog.”
She presses her lips together. “You said I couldn’t let Brayden ruin my happiness.” He nods. Damn straight. “Well, the thing is, Clarke, I… I’ve never been able to forget about the fact that I ruined Claire’s happiness.”
“What the hell are you talking about? What’s Claire have to do with whether or not you get married?”
“Because I was so busy believing in happily ever after and buying into the prince sweeping me off my feet. I was so selfishly absorbed with being in love with Brayden that I never stopped to realize that I was stomping on someone else’s happily ever after. That I was stealing someone else’s prince.”
Her voice is so genuine, her expression so open, that Clarke feels a surge of frustration with himself for not realizing sooner how deeply she’d let the Brayden thing affect her. He’d known, of course, that it had. How could it not? The man she’d thought she’d marry had been married to someone else the entire time. But he’d also thought that through her friendship with Claire and Naomi, she’d made peace with the fact that no part of it had been her fault. He tells her that now, but she immediately shakes her head.
“I should have checked,” she persists. “I shouldn’t have taken his word that his divorce was nearly final. How dumb could I have been?”
“Don’t let yourself feel guilty because you believe the best in people. A jaded person might have second-guessed his claims, sure. But you’re not jaded.”
“Well, I wasn’t then,” she says with a cheeky grin. “Now I’ve got my guard up.”
He smiles back, but he feels a stab of regret and a fresh wave of anger that Brayden had taken someone as trusting and optimistic as Audrey and dulled her ability to always look for the best in people. She isn’t a cynic now, by any means, but it bothers him that the girl who still had dreams of a white wedding dress and doves assumes she isn’t worthy of any of it.
“Hey!” she says happily. “At least our conversation made me forget all about the whole Scandal Boy thing. Do you think they got a picture of us holding hands?”
Clarke looks down, a little surprised to see that they are indeed still holding hands. And more than a little surprised that for the past few moments of their conversation, he hadn’t been holding them for a photo op. But he is most surprised of all that he doesn’t want to let go.
Then the chapter shifts to Monday, January 27. Audrey posts a teaser to her followers: “O-M-G you guys!!! You will never guess where I am today! Be sure to check my stories for all of the white, poofy details.” She is at a bridal salon with Claire and Naomi, and the scene is pure best-friend chaos. When Audrey steps out of the dressing room, Claire and Naomi say “No” at the exact same time. Audrey feigns confusion, then shuffles toward the big mirrors and tries—and fails—to hold in her laugh at the absurd wedding dress. It is a quilted nightmare of mismatched, randomly scattered decorative buttons. “Country quilt is so very me,” she jokes. Claire observes that it looks like someone took scraps and buttons from every other wedding dress in existence and sewed them onto this one. Naomi cheerfully adds, “At least it makes your boobs look good!” Audrey admits she couldn’t resist trying it on, thinking it had to look better on her than on the hanger, but no—it is worse. So much worse.
And then, just as the laughter is at its peak, the saleswoman returns. “Sorry about the delay,” she says. “I had to— Oh. Oh my.” The chapter ends on that horrified little gasp, leaving us to imagine the saleswoman’s face as she takes in Audrey’s quilted disaster.
Reader's Impressions & Star Rating: This chapter is a beautiful balancing act. The fake-dating tension is delicious, but what makes it shine is the emotional honesty underneath. Clarke’s realization that he doesn’t want to let go of Audrey’s hand is quiet, devastating, and perfectly earned. Audrey’s confession about Brayden and Claire gives her fear of marriage real weight, and Clarke’s protective anger feels genuine rather than possessive. The bridal salon scene is a hilarious palate cleanser, but it also reminds us that Audrey is still trying on a dream she claims she no longer wants. ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ Rating: 4.8 / 5 Stars
Next Chapter Prediction: The saleswoman’s “Oh my” will lead to either a comedic rescue or a serious dressing-down, but I suspect the real drama is just beginning. Claire and Naomi will likely press Audrey about why she’s really trying on wedding dresses for a fake wedding—and whether her feelings for Clarke are still pretend. Meanwhile, the Scandal Boy photo of Clarke and Audrey holding hands may go viral, forcing them to sell their engagement harder than ever. I predict the next chapter brings a public outing, a private almost-confession, and maybe the first crack in their carefully constructed rule that this is all just for show.
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